i am 300 pages into this novel, the novel i wanted to write. the novel i was unable to write for lack of confidence, skill, and capacity. it wasn't for lack of passion, that's for certain.
i had to get that first story out, all 600 + pages of it. and while, believe it or not, there are multiple volumes of said story still to explore, i was forced to step away...
and stepping away was paramount to this process. i now know that not only do i have more stories to tell, but that i can achieve that goal from a new perspective, an altered style, and a much improved voice.
this one feels right.
100 pages or so to go, extensive editing, and i'll send this little child out into the unpredictable and peevish hands of literary agents.